An update. I am always behind.

I have been reading all of these articals lately about how to become a successful blogger. And I was trying so hard to find the motiviation. It amazes me how much work goes into creating a blog worth reading. I just don't know that I am that kind of blogger. I think my blogging is mostly a way to keep a journal for myself. I love to write. I love to journal life events and write love notes to my husband and babies. But for some reason, I enjoy writing more when it isn't something I have to "keep up" with. It is easier for me to just write when I am compelled to jot down my feelings. Which is why, I haven't written an update on my birthday goal for almost 4 weeks. It's silly really. I am keeping track at home with a paper journal. But I am not transferring it to the blog world. I do however have to say, that the last 4 weeks have showed wonderful progress. In the last 22 days I am down 14.2 lbs. Insert and all expressions of excitement! I have 17 weeks until my 30th birthday. Actually seven weeks exactly, today. And a change like 14.2 lbs is incredible! I am feeling so confident that I will smash my 30 pound goal before my birthday. My plan now is a little different. I plan to have the second 15 pounds gone before July 1st. Which means, I will spend the last 8 weeks before my birthday just killing it at the gym. More strength training than cardio. I am excited to start seeing muscle definition again and I am determined to feel great in a bathing suit this summer!! I want to wear this... How perfect is this high waisted suit? I know I will feel more comfortable with this style suit. Especially since it will literally by my first time wearing a bikini. Body image issues are silly. But I am determined to feel great going forward.

One big giant "Ah-Ha" moment for me was realizing just how important diet is to losing the weight. Obviously we all know that eating clean is the way to go. But even down to the types of proteins, fruits and veggies. How much each meal and how frequently. I have literally not stepped in the gym for the last 4 weeks. It is hard not going. I would feel much more guilty not going if I didn't see the scale move. So that motivation keeps me moving. I love being in the gym. Getting a good workout in and sweating like crazy. I love the pump after a killer arm workout and that is what I miss most! But I have to keep reminding myself to eliminate the fat first. Then the muscle growth and toning will be far easier! I do have to admit...I want bad food. I crave something different every single day. Yesterday I wanted Chic-fil-a. The day before was pancakes and bacon. Today I want Mexican food and ice cream. And believe me when I say, that I am counting the days until I allow myself a cheat meal. But it is so encouraging to know that I am more excited and motivated by the clean eating. I actually think it will be hard for me to divulge. And I am already preparing my stomach for the aches. This journey is by far the most exciting because I have Kyle to support me in it. I am so grateful for his patience when I cook the most boring dinners. He reminds me how great I am doing everyday and never forgets to tell me that I am beautiful. This process wouldn't be what it is without his love! XOXO